Obsessed ...

I know it has been awhile since I have written in my blog and I apologize for my absence but work has been very busy, and my seemingly insatiable hunger to be used as the dirty little slut that I really am seems to be getting more and more intense, and just about every time I come here to write in my blog, I always first check the "dashboard" of my blog and I always find myself becoming lost/obsessed with all of the BBC/black cock/cuckold related blogs/pics and the next thing I know, my cunt is dripping wet and my legs are spread wide with each leg dangling  over each arm of my desk/computer chair as I stare wide eyed at the computer screen as I masturbate shamelessly and completely out of control. 
I have had an interest in black cock for several years but it was always a secret interest that I would never admit to, but whenever I was alone and in front of a computer, I was drawn to interracial pornography almost immediately, and in the last 3-4 years, my interest seems to have become more specific in regard to black cock, because now I am drawn to sites/blogs where the theme is interracial sex, but especially ones where married white couples/married white women indulge in BBC, or who fantasize about it.

To be totally honest, I have always heard stories from other girls about black men having such huge cocks, even as early as the 7th grade, and all through high school and college I heard similar stories/rumors, which only fueled my secret curiosity even more, but  my college bf convinced me that it was pretty much  a myth and I tended to believe him because it did sound a bit over the top that just because a man was black that he would automatically have a huge cock.
But even though my bf had me pretty much convinced that it was not true, I still could not help imagining being ravaged by a big black cock/s as I lay masturbating on my bed  in my dorm room.  Certain images were etched in to my mind and every time these images would pop in to my head (and they did constantly), I could feel my cunt become wet almost instantly.  The images in my mind were always of  women (mostly blonde, who were either sucking or being fucked by these huge long thick black cocks, and they each woman had the most intense look of pleasure on her face, and their pussies would always look so stretched and so filled, and the women would be hysterically gripping the bed sheets or something similar and I could not help but imagine how intense that must have felt like.  Remember, up until just a few years ago the biggest cock that ever fucked me was @ 7 inches, and I thought that he was so big lol

Shortly after getting married, I found myself with a lot of free time which of course lead to me being on the internet probably more than I should have, and although I could have done a million different things on the internet, I cannot stop my always horny mind from taking me places that I probably shouldn't go, so I found myself perusing all types of pornographic websites, and soon after, discovered the pornographic world of BBC, and in particular, married white couples and/or married white women who loved BBC, and this eventually led me to discover interracial cuckold sites, etc, but I remained very secretive about this and never mentioned this to anyone, especially my newlywed husband.  You also need to remember that my husband is just shy of being 20 years older than I am and he is a very successful businessman who has always had a reputation of being very conservative, and although he provides for me in so many ways, sex was never a strong suit for him.  The sex we had was vanilla and if I am totally honest, he also had a small cock, and because of his age, his stamina was never that great, and his cock didn't get nearly as hard as men my own age or younger, but because of all of the perks I was afforded, as well as financial security like I had only dreamed of,  I did not think it would be that much of an issue.  I have always been a compulsive masturbator, from my early teens on, regardless of how much sex I had.  My favorite way to masturbate had always been with my fingers, although toys were fun every once in a while too, but I did prefer using my fingers, but when I started to become obsessed with images of hung black men fucking white women, and especially married white women, I decided that I wanted to get a black dildo, so I opened a local PO Box and went online and ordered a very life-like looking 9 inch black dildo, the kind that had a suction cup near the base and ball sack, and after ordering it the anticipation that built with each passing day as I waited for it to arrive was incredible.  I rented a PO Box @ 15 miles from where I live (2 towns away) because I could not risk my husband learning that I had a secret PO Box because it would create too much suspicion.  Anyway, everyday I would anxiously drive to the post office and check my PO Box, and finally, after 8 days went by I checked it one day and inside my PO Box was a medium sized non-descript box and as soon as I saw it, I knew what was inside it.  I took it from my PO Box and quickly walked to my car, my hear POUNDING out of my chest in anticipation.  As soon as I got to my car, I nervously looked around and then tore the box open like a hungry wolf searching for food.  I was finally able to open it and when it first came in to view, I literally gasped out loud because it was HUGE.  I reached for it and placed it on the seat next and sat their open-mouthed staring at this magnificent black rubber cock.  It looked just like a real cock, although it was HUGE.  I kept looking around nervously but no one was near me but I was still very nervous.  Next I reached for it and lifted it up and I found myself almost unconsciously wrapping my fingers around the base of the shaft as I inspected every nook and cranny of this huge black dildo.  I was amazed at how life-like it looked, veins bulging from the shaft, and the way the head slightly curved upward, and I also took close notice of the suction cup area as well.  As I fondled it I found myself sort of unconsciously squirming in my seat, and I was so obsessed with this big cock in my hand that I did not even notice someone walking by my car, and thank God they didn't see me with that huge black dildo in my hands (or maybe they did *blush*), and seeing them walk by helped me snap back to reality, and I started my car and drove away.  My husband was expected home in a few hours from a business trip, so I anxiously drove home in a hurry because I could not wait not one more hour to feel what this would feel like.  My cunt was already SOAKED.

I am not going to get in to every little detail, but that day literally changed my life.  I had never felt something so big and so thick sliding in to my hungry cunt, and I LOVED the suction cup because I could literally stick it to a floor and ride it, or stick it to a door and pretend that I am being fucked from behind, and didn't have to hold it with my own hands, and if I closed my eyes, the fantasies that it produced were always very intense, but one of the aspects that turned me on the most, as when I would slide it in to my dripping cunt as I watched myself in a mirror,  Seeing that dark skinned huge, very realistic looking big black cock/dildo parting my glistening cunt lips and disappearing inch after inch in to my aching cunt as my moans and gasps kept getting louder and louder.  My cunt had never felt so stretched or filled in my life, and I typically take a little while to make myself cum, but on that day that huge black cock had me cumming so fast and so intensely, but I didn't stop after the first orgasm.  I couldn't.  I NEEDED more.  I stared in utter amazement at my reflection in the mirror as my white cunt acvcomodated that monstor black cock, because up to that point the largest cock that had ever been in my cunt was  a 7 inch cock, and here I was dripping wet taking ALL of this huge black cock nas I squirmed and moaned hysterically on the floor of my bedroom.  I kept looking at the dark cock sliding in and out of me, coated and glistening in my juices, and in the back of my mind I could hear my mother warning me about interracial relationships and how wrong they were, and how girls that went with "blacks" were branded as "sluts", and here I was willingly fucking myself with a black didl as I imagined a hung black man using me AS HIS WHITE SLUT.  It felt so deliciously taboo and forbidden, and these factors aroused me even more.

I came 4 times in less than 1 hour that day *blush*.

It would be another 2 years before I would experience my first REAL black cock, and I am now running out of time to write but I have to tell you that my life changed forever that day because I discovered first hand how incredibly superior black men are in bed.  It took me another 2 years to openly admit this, because maybe a part of me didn't want to believe it for whatever reason, but it is what it is.  Not too long ago I heard about a survey regarding cock size and I actually heard it on satellite radio one day and they said that Asian men had the smallest cocks (Korean's to be exact) in the world, averaging some where around 4 inches, and the part of the world where men had the largest cocks were from The Congo, (BLACK MEN :) where the AVERAGE cock size was slightly over 7 inches.  I had a huge grin on my face as I drove listening to that :)

Really quickly I will say one more thing.

Does anyone remember the 19 yr old black teenager who is the son of my head nurse at work who interned at my job last year?  The one who I was in a crowded elevator with and the crowd pushed me back in to him and he was directly behind me, and because the elevator was so crowded my ass was pressing against him, and as it did I felt the unmistakeable feeling of a very biog cock stiffening with each passing second, and I KNEW it was him, and how gave him a ride home from a cocktail party my husband through at our home after his mom stayed later, and how I could not resist sucking his big young black cock right in my car.  Well, of course I fucked him after that night and he has been away at school and visited this last weekend and ......

well, I will tell you next time :)

and his roommate from school stayed at his moms too, and yes, he is also black, and boy was it a WILD Saturday night last weekend, and to top it off, my husband was forced to watch BOTH OF THEM using his slut wife for more than 3 hours *blush*